9994/Aftermath of Choices

Aftermath of Choices
Date of Scene:	11 November 2019
Location:	Jay's Room, Xavier's School
Synopsis:	Jay is depressed. Sam to the rescue with comfort food and brotherly advice.
Cast of Characters:	Icarus, Cannonball

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Icarus has posed:
It was The Day After. Saturday to be more precise. Jay had not come out of his room. When anyone knocked, they were told to go away. It was even locked should someone be rude enough to try to walk in anyway.

He had answered texts but with brief answers and just claimed to not want to talk to anyone when pressed. He didn't come out for food all day.

It was probably a good thing it was a Saturday or he would've missed all his classes.

Cannonball has posed:
Samuel Guthrie comes walking up and has brought food he knocks on the door, and does not wait for an answer before "Open the door or I do." He has the big brother a voice, and seems he has heard Jay aint been out and about. "Got food, and you need to eat."

Icarus has posed:
Being siblings, Jay has locked himself in his room before. He has also had Sam sent to get him to 'stop being a hermit' as Ma had put it. Sam had blasted his way in so Jay knew there were teeth behind that growl.

"Whatever," came the muttered response but Sam would hear him walking to the bedroom door. A turn of the lock then he opened it, walking away again and sitting on his bed, propped against the headboard. He picked up his acoustic guitar he'd set aside to answer the door, strumming at it and hunching over like the anti social little person he was being right now.

Cannonball has posed:
Samuel Guthrie will walk over to him, and has brought up some of Jay's favorite food. "You know I don't destroy the whole door if I have to pup it now." He will tell him, walking over sitting the yummy smelling food beside him "Ok, so, more upset ya did it or you enjoyed it?" He asks him.

Icarus has posed:
That gets Jay to raise his head, eyes narrowing as he glared daggers at his brother. He is doing his best angry face as he shakes his head.

Then he smells the food and his stomach betrays him, growling loudly. That makes the young man frown all the more as he hunched even more over his guitar. "It shouldn't have happened. It was dancing and I should've left it that but I lost my mind or something and kissed her! I shouldn't have kissed her. We both know I'm not in a place to do that."

Well, he's the only one that seems to think that of course.

Cannonball has posed:
Samuel Guthrie hmms and had not heard that part, his brow raises a bit to this, and will pull a chair over to look at Jay. "Ok Ah have told ya already that Ah think she would want you to live, and be happiness, think your actually doing her more a disservice, refusing to life your like than kissing someone else. Ah understand how ya feel little brother, Ah was not quite there but Ah got lucky. You know Ah did not know her, but realize she had to be special, to be special to you."

Icarus has posed:
Jay plucks at the strings, not playing any song but just notes here and there. He was frowning. "I had my wings around us. It's the only reason it wasn't plastered all over TMZ." He shakes his head, agitated a bit and looking at Sam.

"I get that but it just seems like I am betraying her. The memory of her. For me to move on seems...sacriligious or something." He pulls his hand off the neck of the guitar and rubs his fingers back through his hair.

"I just...Andrea is so great. Not at all like I would've thought a star would be. And I like her. But I feel like I shouldn't like her."

Cannonball has posed:
Samuel Guthrie looks to him, and says "Trust me kiddo, I remember thinking more why does she like with Lila, but Ah understand different than you would think. Looks to him, and says "Even Ma, moved on Jay." He looks to him, and says "Pa searched the mountains and hollars for mom, after they met, and there are 10 of us so you know that was some fierce love, and it took time, but Ma, really loved Ray Sr.

Icarus has posed:
The frown lessens slightly at that and Jay has to nod. "Yeah..." He hates having to admit it but there it was. Even his mother had managed to move on. Though it wasn't as fresh and took a few years. So shouldn't he take a few years?

What was it the shrink Ma had sent him to said? Everyone was different and when it was time to move on, they know. "Is that potato salad?" He moves the guitar aside and reaches for the food offering as his stomach grumbled again.

"I just... I dunno. It feels like I shouldn't but at the same time, I find myself being happy sometimes. Not just with Andrea, although with her it is a different kind of happy than hanging out with my friends, if that makes sense."

Cannonball has posed:
Samuel Guthrie nods his head, and says "Jay you went through hell, but you making it through. Ah know Andrea likes you and she is trying to give ya the time you need, and know she has been through a lot herself. You have to make your own pace, and your going to do stuff you regret and stuff that you will think about forever. And honestly Andrea may not be who you end up with in the end, but Ah think you should give it a try and the even bigger thing is You think you should give her a chance.

Icarus has posed:
The potato salad was scooped up on his fork and a bite shoved in his mouth. Jay chewed a bit, thinking about Sam's words as he did so. Ma's recipe. Duke's mayo. Perfection.

After he swallowed, he gave a terse nod and sighed. "I don't know that I'll ever not feel guilty. I managed to go dance with her again after. Two more times. Took an extra break if you want to dock my pay for it." Cause he is a responsible type and gets he wasn't really obeying the rules taking that third break.

He scoops up more salad but doesn't take the bite yet. "I just can't believe it's on tv. The littles have been texting me non stop all day."

Cannonball has posed:
Samuel Guthrie nods, and says "Yea, Ma called me, and asked about it, she is the one who told me about it." He will tell Jay. "Well, hope one day you might get past the guilt, but your gonna have to find your peace. Ah can't look at you and say Jay be happy damn it, or just take the pain away, and Ah would if I could, hate seeing you hurting little bro. We all have to deal with death of those we love in different ways, Ah am gonna tell you something. Your first day in the mine. How much did you hate and resent me for not being there, being the one who was doing it, and be honest."

Icarus has posed:
While his brother is talking, Jay is stuffing his face a little more quickly than he probably should. The fried chicken was like the ambrosia of the gods or something. It was so good. Cooked to perfection. If he didn't know better, he'd think Ma cooked it.

Wiping his mouth with the paper towel, he gave a shrug as he considered. "Honestly. A lot. I didn't think it was fair that you were able to go off to a fancy school and I had to step up when all I wanted was to make music. But that wasn't going to put food on the talbe for Ma and the others."

Cannonball has posed:
Samuel Guthrie nods, and says "Talking about feeling guilty.... Ah felt the same way about Pa. Had such plans for college and such, but Ah stepped up and went in there and even now, Ah understand why Ah resented Pa for dying. That is was not fair, but your not the first one who Ma looked at and said "Your going up to Xavier's fancy school. And looking back now it was the best thing me coming here, but Ah felt guilty being here, like ah was leaving you guys in a lurch. But now, Ah am going to college and between my pay, Paige's and yours the little ones will be able to go to any college they plan, and Ah still plan on making sure you can go to college as well. Ah know it sound silly, but we are Guthries and throw what ever you want at us, we may stumble, we may have to lean on one another for some things but we do not give up, we are to damn stubborn too.

Icarus has posed:
"Not sure I want to go to college. I want to make music still. I know that's not considered a realistic career but it's what I hope to do," Jay says. "I know Ma would be thrilled if I went though. I dunno. I'll think about it. I know I can take some classes here, if I opt to. Otherwise, I will need to put in applications other places. Ehn, we'll see."

He does grin that they are Guthries and can get through anything, even if it is stubbornness that gets them through. "You got that right, that's the funniest thing. Too stubborn not to do what we put our minds to. Even if it might be impossible."

Cannonball has posed:
Samuel Guthrie looks to his brother, and says "There is music colleges, Ah believe Andrea is planning on going one. Ah do believe though that music can be a career, and Ah will help where Ah can, we get talent scouts coming into the club, and want to make sure you play on some of those nights. Heck, Ah might have ya open the night Dazzler's doing her show, might be a bit of nepotism bur Ah think might get you a bit of press, not that your going to be pressed for it after last night. Oh a rule, I had forgotten to tell you, but luckily I remembered to tell others. If someone is asking about folks, it is ok to tell them first names, but we don't tell folks last names. Not that you can't tell folks if you want, just want to make sure if your last name gets out it is your choice. Figure it is safer that way.