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J'onn	A few days before J'onn goes on his trip with Star Sapphire to coordinate the union of the Red and White Saturnians he sends Felicia a message <Are you available this evening, my Heart?>. J'onn's mental voice is pleasant, and Felicia can feel hints of excitement and a little bit of nervousness that is rarely present. She can sense that he is not far away, in fact, he is approaching even as he sent his message to her. <I realize I am being a bit presumptuous by heading in your direction before you've answered, but I sensed you were at home without any current guests.> She can feel he is a bit embarrassed by being so forward, but there is obviously something that he is excited to share with her. <If you have plans this evening I can come by another time, but I will be leaving in a few days. I would like to explain what is happening, what you will feel, and how long I expect to be gone.> This time she can feel that he is saddened by the separation, looking forward to whatever the activity is, but will miss her for as long as he will be gone.
Felicia Hardy	<I am always free for you, My Dear. Please, come over, I'll be so happy to see you...> Felicia is just changing to relax at home, and thrilled at the prospect of not spending the evening alone. <I'm glad you're coming, I was hoping to see you again soon.>
J'onn	<All you need do is send me a message, and I will come, my Heart.> J'onn replies to Felicia, his feelings easily read over the shared link, and the smile still on his normally stoic features as he phases through the living room ceiling of her apartment. He sits down on the couch as he waits for her to change, sending her his affection through their link, <The first topic is to explain that I will be traveling to Saturn in a few days...> his thoughts relay a species of beings created by the Martians to assist in their endeavors a very long time ago, originated from Martian DNA, Red representing the Green Martians and White being an offshoot of the White Martians. <As the only surviving member of the Green Martians, they have reached out to me to broker a Union between the leader of the Red Saturnians and the princess of the White Saturnians. It is my job to insure the proceedings are fair to both communities, and that it will allow both peoples to prosper in the future...> The rest he will tell her when she meets him out at the couch.
Felicia Hardy	Felicia takes the stairs from the bedroom two at a time as she descends to see J'onn, and drops into his lap, wrapping her arms around him as he is seated. "That sounds like a lot of diplomacy. You're gonna be a busy Martian." She grins and leans her cheek against his shoulder, her affection very clear in their link. "So tell me all the deeeetaaaails...."
J'onn	As Felicia comes down the stairs J'onn's smile returns and broadens quite a bit at the sight of her as well as the emotions she sends to him. When she sits in his lap, he wraps his large arms around her, almost enveloping the woman in his green embrace. "I am going to be very busy. I have asked Star Sapphire to go, because her abilities will help smooth over some of the more volatile members of both parties." There is some apprehension here, specifically directed at the Saturnians, "The species has inherited the Martians own dislike between their Creators." "You see, my Heart, Green and White Martians have been at odds with one another since our split by our gods many many millennium ago" There is a sadness there, both at the loss of his species as well as the enmity between the groups of Martians. "If I can help solve this problem, it will give me some closure, I believe, for the loss of my own people." He rests his forehead against the top of her head, adding "And I believe /you/ would be happier knowing that someone you trust would be there to insure my safe return to you." His voice holds humor, and she can see the small smirk on his lips at the comment. Still, he believes that what he is telling her is true, even if they havne't discussed it before.
Felicia Hardy	"Of course, Love. I'm sure you're more than capable. But I'll be happy knowing that you have backup. And knowing that you won't be alone all that way." Her voice expresses a hint of sadness at the thought, but she perks up again for J'onn's sake. "How long will you be gone? When are you leaving, and when will you return?" There are already ideas percolating in her head of impenetrable vaults that will need to prove their impenetrability. Or something.
J'onn	J'onn brushes a hand through her hair, "I will miss you tremendously, my Heart." he says in response to her feelings of sadness, and she can feel his sadness mirror her own. "I expect the trip to take no more than half a day out there. They have sent a very advanced space ship that will make the trip in less time. I believe the negotiations to be no more than three days, that will include the Union Ceremony, and then any potential nuptial agreements afterwards. Then we will immediately fly back." He tilts his head down, so his eyes can meet her own, "Five days at the worst. Five days, and we will see each other again." He lets out a long sigh now, "More importantly is that my telepathy will not reach from Saturn to here. This will not break the bond we are forging, but it will make it as if normal people were trying to talk from very far away." She can feel that J'onn is also unhappy about this, and in some ways feels he needs to increase his own abilities to overcome this loss. "You will know if I am injured or troubled, but it will be more like a vague sense instead of an absolute knowledge." he adds, having a sense of her will be just as important for him, maybe more so, given his ability to deal with almost any situation. "When we return, I will share with you all that I saw, and if I can bring the ship back with me maybe you would enjoy a trip through the Solar System?"
Felicia Hardy	Felicia smiles brightly and gives J'onn a squeeze. "I'd love that. The solar system. Or even just around the Earth, as long as I'm with you, I'll be the happiest cat in the world. Or...outside of it." She blinks. "Is there a chance you COULD get hurt there? Are things that vicious and ugly?"
J'onn	"The Saturnians are similar to the Martians, but not quite as strong..." J'onn tells her honestly, "...and not nearly as strong as a Manhunter." again to clarify, and hopefully put Felicia's concerns at ease. "But we should always be vigilant in case they have brought in something else." J'onn nods once, adding "And I am sure whatever trouble you decide to get into while I am away that you will do your utmost to remain safe as well." Yes, that was indeed a statement, but sent with concern for her well being. "We will see all the things you wish to see, my Heart. The World and the Galaxy is an amazing place. It is unfortunate that the Humans have barely scratched the surface of what is out there... or even on their own planet." Then, he leans back so he can look into her eyes, "However, before I go I wish to share something with you. Something I have never done with anyone, Martian or Human, and similar to the book you made for me." There is now a light of excitement again, and he continues "It will be something for you to carry with you for the rest of your life."
Felicia Hardy	Felicia's hand goes to the red diamond that dangles from her leather choker and tilts her head. "You've already given me something that I can carry for the rest of my life, Love. If you're not careful, you'll spoil me, and then I'll be a brat for the rest of yours..." She winks and kisses his forehead.
J'onn	"I am very happy that you enjoy that gift so much, my Heart." J'onn tells her, his eyes closing as she kisses his forehead, "But this is something more. While you can see my memories, share in some cases if we're close enough, there is another step. I can give you my memories, similar to you giving me those pictures, but instead of just the photograph you will own the memory. It will be something you can see, remember, and relive as you wish..." His eyes watch hers, his senses waiting to see her reaction, "...it will never fade, nor will it disrupt your own thoughts, and it will be a way for you to have me with you always..." another pause, and he asks "...if you desire?"
Felicia Hardy	Felicia watches J'onn for a moment, trying to wrap her mind around what he's telling her. "It's like Harry Potter!" She seems excited, but uncertain as to the logistics of it all. "You can DO that? I mean, do you still keep a copy? You have to, right? I mean otherwise you lose all the piano lessons and forget how to dance."
J'onn	"I will keep a copy..." J'onn smiles back to her, his head slowly processing the reference that Felicia is making, "For you, it will be reliving the memories I share, or at least the ones that I recall before I came to Earth." He takes a deep breath, "Some will not be pleasant, some are filled with much sorrow, but they are what make me who I am. I think, based on what you gave me, that you would desire to see what has made me the Martian I am today." His hand takes both of hers easily in it's grasp, "and how that has drawn me to you. The difference you have made."
Felicia Hardy	"J'onn," Felicia utters softly, tipping his chin to look into his eyes. "You realize that I want to know everything. Learn. Everything." Her gaze is intent, as she carries a quiet and intensely sincere air between herself and J'onn. "There is nothing that I don't want to know and understand. There is nothing that I would not want to feel or see or remember as you do. This would mean more to me than anything else you could ever do..."
J'onn	J'onn keeps his red orbs on her eyes as Felicia speaks, and he can feel the sincerity in those words, feelings, and wishes. "I know, my Heart. That is why I offer to you before any other. It is something that leads to another shared aspect of the Martian Culture, but that is a conversation for another day." He folds his legs up under her, making an easy enough seat for her to get comfortable. He turns her, so that when she folds her legs she can easily sit in the space he's made, and he takes both of her hands. "When I share these memories it will seem as if you are living them. You will know that they are mine, but you will see the world through my eyes. Feel it with my emotions, and understand better what it is to be a Martian." He takes a few deep breaths, the connection between them strengthening, and in her mind he asks <Are you ready, my Heart?>
Felicia Hardy	Watching his eyes intently, Felicia nods quietly. Holding his hands tightly, she contemplates what it must have been like to go through all that J'onn has. Then comes the realization: She's about to find out for herself.
J'onn	<Close your eyes, my Heart.> J'onn tells her, and as she does she will feel that link of theirs grow until it is all she senses for a moment. Then, as if the voice is from everywhere instead of a single point she will hear <Open your eyes....> and when she does it is almost like seeing the World for the First Time. The colors are more vibrant of which there seems to be more colors, she can see odd ribbons of light that she figures out is actually various waves from the electromagnetic spectrum, and she will have a tingling around her that she identifies as the psionic presence of other beings around her. When she looks around she will see J'onn, no a Mirror of J'onn but Darker... both in Look and Presence... but a twin to be sure. <J'onn J'onzz wake up. It was not that hard of a tumble, Come!> is the voice that echoes in her mind. She recognizes, for the first time that his name (not First and Last) is J'onn J'onzz.. meaning Light to the Light, and before her is his twin brother Ma'alefa'ak, whose name means Darkness in the Heart. She will see Mars as it was in J'onn's youth. Towering City as far as the eye can see, some buildings floating in the sky, and the presence of other Martians from The Great Voice... it is a presence, a happiness, a oneness with a species that means you are Never Alone... you feel as if you are one with the Universe.
Felicia Hardy	Blinking a few times as if her eyes are deceiving her, Felicia looks around her. Or..rather around J'onn, trying to regain bearings. It's all so much more than even she was prepared for.
J'onn	In the continued vision she will feel the wind of Mars warm against her skin, and the thinner atmosphere shield less of the radiation from space from her skin. However, with her innate talents, she is able to shield herself in ways that means the deadly radiations never touch her, and the wind that could tear the skin from any other being is easily shunted away. She learns that J'onn's parents, M'yrnn and Sha'sheen, are well respected members of the Green Martian Community. The oddity of a twin birth a blessing as the Martian Species is smaller in population than others in the Universe, and that they have traveled all of the Galaxy as well as beyond. J'onn is well loved, as is his brother, and his parents constant presence in the Great Voice is a reminder of that love every moment of every day. He runs and plays with his brother, games of telekinesis and telpathy that would make most of the Human world marvel on their precision. Shape shifting to different forms that allow them to fly, wrestle, or track each other across the harsh landscape of the Planet. J'onn's childhood was happy, but even then it can be felt the jealousy that his twin has for him. How easy life is for J'onn, and how accepted he is by the other Martians. In the Great Voice that jealousy cannot be hidden, and J'onn carries that burden even today. Knowing that his brother, his twin, began to hate him above all others.
Felicia Hardy	Marveling at his abilities, Felicia draws a slow breath. She has never seen all of the marvelous things that J'onn can do. To see both J'onn and his twin doing so with such ease utterly fascinates her beyond all belief.
J'onn	There is a shift, J'onn is older, and has been selected to become a Manhunter for the Martian people. They are like detectives, protectors, judges, jury, and in the worst cases executioners. The honor is great, as there are less than one percent of the Martian species that can claim the title, and the selection process is arduous. Both He and His brother are talented beyond even Martian measures, but it is J'onn's calm devotion to fairness that shines brightest. Again, he can feel his brother's hate grow, and yet J'onn still loves his brother most in all of Mars. J'onn spends years, in the Human terms Centuries, learning to become a Manhunter. Martial combat using all of his abilities with brutal efficiency, the training is violent, but again the Great Voice shows there is no malice. The training is meant to insure that all Manhunters can carry out their missions without any other assistance. J'onn learns of his gods, their beliefs, and how they impact Martian Culuture. He learns the Cultures of many other Species across the Galaxy, and their languages so that he can communicate if the need arises. Most importantly, he learns to assess a situation so that he makes no judgment until all avenues are understood, and that very rarely is the answer as simple as it seems. The last Trial for all Manhunters is to face the Martians greatest fear. The Flame. In a building where the Manhunter training is conducted stands the largest of Bonfires, constantly present, and J'onn is forced to stand within a few feet of it. His fear is immense, almost causing her to be unable to breathe, and he believes this is where he will fail. Still, the Great Voice is there, encouraging, providing strength, and reminding him he does this for his People. Each step is agony, the flame seems to reach for him, wanting to devour his form, but still he moves on. Eventually he is there, the flames licking at his skin, but he stands before it strong. The Fear is still there, but it does not paralyze him. In this moment he feels pride, not his own, but the singing of the Martian People at the Presence of another Manhunter.
Felicia Hardy	"You fear fire..." Felicia speaks the words aloud, scarcely interrupting the flow of the memory. It is a revelation that she somehow feels that she should have known. But she continues to watch it unfold.
J'onn	That shift again, and now Felicia stands in the center of the Great Chamber of Judgment in the Manhunter Enclave. There are all of the Manhunters present, the Council of Elders for the Martian People, and he looks to see his Mother and Father on the Council. There are several females Martians present, faces hidden in shame, and the sense of violation rolling off of them like a tidal wave that J'onn endures. He endures because he has captured his brother, a Mind Rapist, the worst offense within the Martian Community, and has brought him to be judged. The Manhunters easily scour his brother's memory with their combined strength, and J'onn is forced to relive all the violations he heaped on these Martian Women. The acts sicken him, in some ways tainting his soul, but he agrees with the other Manhunters. Ma'alefa'ak is guilty, and the sentence is that his psionic abilities will be blocked for the rest of his life. Even as his brother is torn from the Great Voice he can feel, one more time, the seething hatred that his brother directs towards him for this deed. Years pass, his brother has not committed any further grievances, and has asked for a chance at atonement. The Martians have been warmed, by the Great Voice of the planet Mars, that a contagion is present that can wipe out the species. J'onn, Seven other Manhunters, and his Brother are sent to investigate what may cause this curse. They find an ancient Blood Magic temple that is the source of a dark ritual, at this point is when Ma'alefa'ak springs his trap, and captures the Manhunters in the ritual. He tells J'onn "Now, you will be the reason our people pay..." his brother enacts the ritual, sacrificing each of the Manhunters to empower J'onn in the hopes that he will be the carrier of the contagion, but J'onn is able to break free with the strength granted form the other Manhunters... but not before his brother can escape as he promises retribution against the Martian Peoples.
Felicia Hardy	With furrowed brow, Felicia watches J'onn's story unfold. She is glad to learn so much, but feels utterly helpless to assist J'onn, the one thing that she wishes to do beyond all else.
J'onn	The next memory is horrific, more so than anyone could expect, and Felicia is exposed to the whole of it as far as J'onn can recall. The Great Voice screams in Pain and Suffering, thousands of voices disappear in the Pain of Fire, Millions are gone, and J'onn can hear each agonizing death as it happens. Something has happened, something that attacks the psionic presence of the species, and each time a Voice calls out it passes the plague. J'onn, realizing what is happening, tears himself from the Great Voice... an act of such immense Willpower that he doubts he could perform it again... and then J'onn learns what it is like to be Alone in the Universe. The only Voice is his own. He moves over the surface of Mars, so fast that he doesn't even register against the wind, and before him stands a fortress bathed in Fire. This is where his Brother is at, the engineer of H'ronmeer's Curse, Genocide of his own Species. J'onn blasts through the Fire, as his brother taunts him "What you have taken from me!! I have used to KILL YOU ALL!!" and they have a battle the likes the planet Mars has never seen. In the end, J'onn is the victor, and burns his brother alive in the Flames of his own Fortress... he is ashamed.. he is alone... He is the Last Son of Mars. A Presence, the Planet of Mars itself, calls to J'onn. It does not speak in Words, but complex thoughts that he cannot follow. He knows the Planet is Ashamed of it's People. What they have done to one Another. Mars decides to cleanse itself, and hope that in time it may recover from such an affront. It finds in J'onn a sole purpose, a Manhunter, a being worth sharing with the Universe. J'onn is torn apart, his psyche shredded, and sent some place else.... some place Alien...
Felicia Hardy	Felicia's heart is racing. Her breath hastened. Her throat closes if she tries to swallow, so immense is this sadness.
J'onn	There is a sense of confusion for a long time, it is hard to follow, as if he does not know who or what he is at this time. Eventually J'onn sees the world he is on, Earth, and learns of it's peoples. Their strengths, honor - courage - selflessness - joy. He also sees their weaknesses, greed - avarice - power - hate. Over time he takes on different persona to learn how these people truly understand one another. All cultures, all sexes, even animals and other creatures to understand this new planet and how all the entities interact with one another. Then there is a familiar face, her own, in a familiar lab that had been conducting experiments on the remnants of one of his people. She is beautiful in mind, and heart as he looks her over without delving into her mind. She sees that J'onn looks on her physical form, but with his Martian Eyes that see beyond the skin. A light that she does not even know she had, and it brings a warmth to J'onn's soul. Her willingness to help, the indignation at what is being done, and the concern she showed for him when he stays behind to secure her escape. It is a memory he cherishes, kept safe like these others, and that has caused him to consider his emotional exile from these amazing Humans. Next is the time she tracked him down, or so she thought until this moment, when J'onn had recognized her psychic energy to come down to this roof on that specific night. There is a feeling, unique since he has lost the Great Voice, and she has brought it out in him. For the time they spend talking, the time they spend staring at the sky, J'onn feels what it is like to not be alone.
Felicia Hardy	<You are NOT alone My Love. I am always there with you. Watching, waiting....defending if need be.>
J'onn	Next she will see him come across a new entity, on the dark side of the moon, and her violet powers building a smaller scale rendition of the Galaxy they are in. She will see how easy their conversation becomes, how open she is, and easily she sees through the pain that J'onn carries.. his loneliness that was gone when with Felicia... and J'onn adds to her construct the lights and energy that only he can easily see. Minuscule details that bring the construct to life, and that starts the formation of a bond that would benefit them all. The next time that he is found by Star is when she speaks to him again of his loss. She mentions that the loss is lessened when in the presence of another, and how even across the Planet she can feel that void filled. With her power she brings to J'onn a small sense of what he has been missing, she shares it with him from her own concern, and her own wish to not see the stoic Martian so separated from a World that he bleeds for without asking for anything in return. J'onn feels from her what Humans understand as affection, companionship, love, and again his heart is lightened with the presence of another. Then she will sense, from J'onn's side, when the bond between the three is formed, and their presence is a constant comfort to his pain. His new Voice, small for now, but their presence is as Great as any from his past. The strength he takes from them is felt in every beat of his heart, and they truly have no idea how much they have brought Light back into his life. Not until now, does Felicia truly understand that they have brought J'onn back from the brink of a living death... devoid of connection... and how every moment of every day he touches that link to know he is not alone. Slowly she comes out of the trance, still sitting in J'onn's lap, and she will see his face directly across from her own. From his eye is a single tear that rolls down his cheek, a light red, but it is obviously not blood as it has the same consistency as water. It makes a streak as it rolls down, and he opens his red eyes taking a shuddering breath. "Thank you, my Heart for sharing my Joys and Sorrows and Loves with me. I hope they offer you comfort in the days I am away, and on nights when I am gone. You now carry with you a piece of me for all time."
Felicia Hardy	Felicia looks deeply into J'onn's eyes and rests her forehead against his. "I was never truly alone before. But I am honored to have this piece of who you are." And with that, Felicia kisses J'onn with such passion that she hopes she might drive away his sorrow.
J'onn	"No, I think Humans are extremely resilient in the aspect of sense of self, and valuing themselves outside of their connections to others." J'onn states with a sense of pride in her, and understanding it as a flaw in the Martian World. When she kisses him, he returns the kiss in kind, and after a moment tells her, "And now I remember what it is like to never truly be alone."